Fulcrum

The hardest part about growing up is the friends you lose in the process. Now that all my friends are leaving, I seem to be gaining momentum, not only with the better job, but also with college, living quarters, and so on, I have it made here, but my friends are not biding their time, They want to get out of here, as do I, I was just hoping that as I laid my foundations for my success, all those at my side leave, Especially her.

How she builds her house from straw and sticks, letting blonde ambition and dreams of some fairytale relationship get in the way of her success as well. She is foolish. She thinks that by changing worlds, by making Love to people like me will make her happy. All she is doing is queuing up more people to hurt, pain, anger, and disappoint. She’s a fool. She’s a jester of the fools. But my fortress, my rock, my castle will be open for her as long as the position of “My Queen” is not filled. I wish that she would either claim her throne, or that one seeking the seat of my heart and the crown of Roses would come take her place.

I clearly Envision the world that is in my soul. How a great and powerful dragon reigns as king. A king that rules not with iron fists and commands of men, but with wisdom and justice. He has a heart of gold and eyes like fire, claws as sharp as steel, but a touch like velvet. How his heart burns like a furnace, and how with every pump he conjures more fire and power. His Eyes as clear as crystal and glow like coals. His skin like sheets of razors and with his powerful spirit, he sends all other men and beast running for the woods.

And yet despite his power, he unfolds into a caring and wonderful Love. How his stage is set with dim lights and a musty wine, how he feeds her from the palm of his hand and how he massages away her tension. How he rubs the strife from her shoulders and neck. And then brushes them like a feather. How his shoulders are brawny and strong, and his embrace comforting. How his entwining strikes like lighting, but how his lips are as soft as candle light.

The heat from his mouth and blood envelope him and his Lover. Done in the young eve and like the night, young is his style and innocent is his embrace. His eyes shine like the stars and her lips shimmer like the galaxy. How he continues to kiss her and embrace her tightly. With every throb more deeply grows their kiss and embrace. They embrace the moment with a fiery delight as he gently inserts his tongue into her mouth.

Savor this moment, savor this bliss, as our bodies, minds and spirits unite with this kiss. Don’t just Heed it, Feed it. Don’t just sip but indulge. Take my soul for what it is worth. Indulge in it, My Love. Consume me, my angelic queen. Walk with me in the woods. Let’s race through the ruins enveloped by forest and vine. I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine.

Our love will be like Rose: Even in death it is still retains it’s beauty for all to see. Hug me, Kiss me, caress me, undress me, feel me, steal me, purge me scourge me, for I will always be yours, and you’ll always be mine.

I’ll be your beast you’ll be my feast. I’ll envelope you with kisses from your head to your feet my lips will meet. From your thighs to your face, my face will embrace. I will consume you as thou hast consumed me. How my mind is a plethora of foreplay and romance. How heart would sing for a simple dace. How we’d meet in secret in the woods how I’d smother you with riches and goods. But she denies her throne and there are none who see, the Love inside a Dragon Named “Anthony”

Hello My fellow bloggers, Today I’m very excited because for the last several weeks I have refrained from using Magic because I had a lot of pent up anger and negative energy. But I feel at last that I am again in a performing state of mind. And what’s better is the fact that I’m not sure if Magic works this way, but I feel that my energy has peaked and that with tonight’s ceremony, I plan on sending great amounts of spiritual energy from my body into the Earth.

I feel restless, on overdrive. Though I have not slept well in days, I feel full of energy and vigor. I already know what I want to do. I want to beckon the elementals and ask for their empowerment. I’m going to ask for omen and wisdom for what may come of the next few months. I’m going to ask the spirits of Love and Water to bring me the girl of my dreams, and pray for the wisdom to know her when I see her. I’m going to offer sacrifices of herb, roses, and incense. I can’t wait for it!

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After last night’s post, I centered myself and began to meditate. It had been a while since I spent time in meditation, and it felt good to get a chance to reconnect with myself. My main goal of my meditation was to come to peace with myself, but it evolved into calling together the elements and spirits. I called on them, and when I began to call on fire, I realized at this time, it would be best for me to call only on the spirits of magic in Fire.

Fire is a masculine energy that is the symbol for Magic, vigor, and power. And I realized shortly after calling on the Power of fire, that asking for such a manifestation was like giving a pissed off two-year-old an SMG. I corrected this summon and reverently asked the Spirits of Power to leave. I realized the reason that I should not be using magic right now is that my inner self has been hurt and altered in a way where I have been harboring negative energies and hatred. Though certainly justified, such inner hatred could subconsciously be channeled through my spirit, and worse, through my Magic.

Though such feelings are only Natural, one must keep in mind that By accepting, Practicing, and Using Magic, that you are becoming Supernatural, thus you must be BETTER than your instincts, even if they are justified. You have to become stronger than your fleshy self. You have to keep in mind that Karma takes notice when you up your spiritual ante. So I decided that for right now, it would be unwise to do anything beyond ground and purify myself.

While in meditation, I met a spirit that referred to himself as Tomas, and said that he was an Earth Elemental that knew the knowledge of a useful spell to help me cleanse the negatives and hatred. He asked for a remarkably small sacrifice, but gave me the knowledge of a complicated spell that would take three days to complete. Once I am done, I think I will again be able to be in the performing state.

Well, Hello my fellow bloggers! Not much is up tonight. At least as of now. Katrina and I will see each other when she gets off, but I have some time to think and reflect. I’m not sure when I’m going to Tell her about Jenny, my guess is I will as soon as there actually is something to report. But anyway, today, I stopped by her store again, it was semi-late, and I asked her if she wanted to get something to eat or hang out with each other for a short time. She kindly dismissed, and said she made arrangements with her friend Amber.

I figure that it would be a little better for me to lay a little lower for the time being. I don’t think that my invitation came off as creepy, but I want to make sure that I do not press too hard. It’s kind of a strange situation, not wanting to rush things, but having interests, but at the same time not getting at the fact that I like her. I mean, if there is someone else interested in her, I don’t want her to choose them because I was a shy-away, but at the same time, I don’t want her to think I’m scary. It could go both ways, but I definitely don’t think that tonight went wrong. In fact, I think I plucked it just right, making a statement, and being cordial but not imposing.

She’s really pretty too… It wouldn’t surprise me a bit if someone else liked her. I want to let her know that I am here, but at the same time I want things to go right, I don’t want to rush things. I’m comfortable with where I am right now, I have a good job, I’m getting a better one, I have a reliable car, I’m doing well in school, I have a safe place to stay at night; I don’t need a woman to feel good about myself, but they sure are a wonderful element to have in life. Do any blogger women have Advice? Are there any ways to tip the table my way without loosing any the pieces?

I have a feeling I know one way, but I’m not sure if I want to call on my Magic to do this. I would never launch a spell towards anyone else, but enhancing myself is a good way to find my place. I’ve done it several times, and every time it has paid off. But I’m not sure… Magic isn’t much of what I do, it’s more like my prayer manifested in candles, oil, and Ritual. But with all these blessings that come from my hard work and divinity, I kind of feel demanding. I think I will meditate several days on it before I do anything. I want to make sure all the pieces fall together. Good or bad, Righteous or Evil, all choices hold consequences.